Be Authentic. Be Real. Be YOU <3

“This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And baby, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soulmate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” 

― Marilyn Monroe

MY heart..

It's now have been 7 days since the school session started.
I'm not quite excited to be a Form 4 student. Actually, i don't know why did i feel like nothing going on.
Like i got the feeling that this all are not going to be work this year. I mean, i'm far apart from my friends.
We got different classes. At First, i really can't accept the fact that we're all not in the same situation anymore.
But,as the time and days goes by.. now i take it all with my heart open. I let myself to think positively.
ONE THING that still bothering me until today. and that's is why i'm writing it here. It's keep making me confused every time  i think about it.Recently, i applied to a school....... It's a school where all smartass students study. *Maktab Rendah Sains Mara  (MRSM) that's the name. Today,i've sent my application to the head quarters of MARA. I've sent it! yes! i know i've sent it. There's no way to turn my head back. And yet, I don't know if i accepted to study at MRSM or what.. But AS IF i got accepted,things that worrying me are I really don't want to leave my family.Still,a part of my heart says I should go. It's better to study boarding than to stuck in here forever.Leave SMK Kidurong for now. There's nothing for you at here.HMPPPPPPHHHHHH..I am reluctantly to leave everything here. (ohhh,i'm crying.damn) Leave my family and friends.First, if i'm not around anymore.. the saddest one is definitely my mother. She'll be crying all the times if i go study there.She said to me before that she don't want me to go,after my older sister leaved us for study at Kuching.She said that there's no one will accompany her anymore if i go to Kuching too. I know how she feels,because i feel the same as her. I'll be alone and there's gonna be no more a person called mom yelling and calling my name with the sweetest sound.The second person is confirmed to be my brother. Although he's acting all cool, but inside he still have that 12 years old kid feelings. Feeling alone by himself and no one plays with him. There's will be no more me argued and fighting with him.. No more me accompany him for the school day. No more me compete against him to take food and rice. No more me to argue with him over the remote control.No more me to yelling at him for using my laptop to play games for hours. Awwwww,. that's will be a hard time for him to go through the day all by himself.Thirdly,of course that will be my dad. He's a good father.really.i mean it. even though he always can't fetch me at school but he tried his best. And,it will be all his responsibility for taking care and giving me money if i study there.I know, I rely on him a lot. I know i can't redeem all the goodness he's been doing. and last place goes to my friends obviously. They all will be leave behind and stuck at Smk Kidurong until they graduated their high school. I'll be missing them a lot. Miss all the time that we all share together. sweet and bad memories. happy and tears. all the laughters.i'm so gonna missed all that. But,being a person we must go on and never look back. IT'S ALL ABOUT MY HEART.I want seek for the bright future. An then,i'll be catching the starlet of my life. IT IS MY DREAM.

A BLAST!

Heyyyaaa.. Fella~ hw ya'll doin?
been a long time I x update my blog..
sorry for that? haha. i know i'm talkin to myself and type like an idiot person.
Just for updating my blog~
now....... I'm going to ANNOUNCE an IMPORTANT thing.....
*drumroll....dum dum dum dum dum
I GOT 6A1B FOR MY PMR! hahaha. i just couldn't believe it.
even now,a day have past.. i still pinch my cheeks.like is it for real?
I know..even tho i didn't get 7a but i still proud of myself.
I did all the best for myself. and it's worth my hard works.
now it's paid off. 6a! be grateful and thankful.
i thank and praised the Lord cuz he gave all the strength for me to go through this hard life.
I prayed every night (hehehe not every night tho).
Asked him to bless my family,my friends and myself. take good care of me.
Guide me to the right path,don't let me stumble down,and be with me when i have difficult time.
It was surprise,but i know HE's always be with me...
everyday,every hour,every minute,every second,and every moments.He knows that i love him so much
Without his guide,i dunno what i'm gonna be.i'm so blessed.thanks to the heavenly father.
And I know it's a difficult journey during my 3 years at my high school.
My friends and I worked hard through the year. We've been studied all day long.
5 days in a week studied from morning till evening. go home late at night.go tuition. i mean..my friends.
i didn't go to tuition cuz i x want.i just study at my home alone. buy many books just to get enough revisions.
Do this,do that,do this,do that.. it's been a crazy but sweet year for me.
One more thing,the weirdest thing was,my friends and I all get the same results. all get 6a1b! hahaha
i was like what the hell happens? all of us has the same results? got to be kidding me right? but for real,yeah!
i heard on news that this 2011 PMR batch was the BEST was the best in HISTORY.
hahahahaha.I'm so glad to hear that! weelll... GOOD JoB to 96'S GENERATIONS!!!
WELL DONE,EVERYONE! <3 I know we all can do it.now,we've proved it. To rhe WORLD!
ohhhh~ and also,i reaallllly wanna thank my parents and family for supporting me all this times.
Espeacially for my MOMMY..she's been angry,mad,upset,devastated and etc with me...
she gave me all the advices.and it's all work.hahaha. thank you mom.IL0VEYOU!
To my dad,he's supported me from my financial.He let me buy all the school stuff that i need.
evn tho it costed a lots of money.but he's willing to waste it on me.i am grateful to have parents like them <3
Dad,Mom,. I know you're proud of me! i can see it in your eyes! love you two!

p/s : DAD,CAN I HAVE MY PRESENTS NOW? SINCE,I'VE MAKE YOU PROUD TO HAVE A DAUGHTER LIKE ME? HAHA *JOKE. ALSO NOT FORGET, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY! HAVE A BLAST! HAPPY NEW YEAR TOO! #here the sneak peek of my results.hehehe ^^ . BYE! xoxo <3

And also,have a blast christmas and new year too for my beloved BOYFRIEND!!! Chunji Oppa~
Saranghaeyo! <3 <3 <3 (it tickle me when i wanted to sound cute.hahaha.whatever ^^)

Hello Monday!

welllll..as you all  know..

today is MONDAY~

and tomorrow is TUESDAY..

It's just left ONE WEEK until HOLIDAY.

i have the same feeling.

HAPPY and SAD at the same time.

HAPPY = cause it's holiday time.no need to study and think 'bout homework.

SAD = cause gonna miss my friends.miss "somebody".miss the chaos and everything.

I don't know tho.

p/s : MIXED FEELING :(

|.My Stranger.|

The weird thing about me is that I have this huge amount of anger inside me that I can't seem to get rid of.. though I keep it all in..there were times when I would snap ..just like that with no triggers or anything of that kind….i would be lying if I said I don't know the cause of that anger.. I would be a damned liar! Just like your perfect lying…
Hey my stranger, you added to my anger.. tons even…cause although I didn’t trust you enough .. I believed you to be a kind person…one with a heart of whiteness…. But you know what? … I am not stupid as you think me to be .. I had this nagging feeling that this day would come.. ! it just came sooner than I expected !
Does it seem stupid to you that I am talking to you on this piece of electronic paper??? Well. I have to or else my anger will take over me and I will be lost .. so I am doing it for my sake not yours.. this time I won't be sending it to you.. not now ..not tomorrow …
I would always ask myself what is it that I saw in you?? You were not good looking at all! In fact you looked horrible.. nothing like other young men .. you were skinny .. you had bags under your eyes making you look scarier .. you didn’t know how to match a shirt with a trouser and a boot .. you didn’t have a nice physique..it's the exact opposite.. but knowing myself I never gave a shit about looks ..!
I just thought we had this connection.. were they also lies.. the secrets you would tell me ???
Oh ! how I wished to believe you for just one little time..you know ..why I didn’t react when you told me the last two big secrets of you??? Cause who could blame me fighting with myself trying to believe you but not being totally convinced .. no .. I am not saying you were a bad guy…. I am saying that you were a liar ! a total jerk!
If I was heartbroken … or if I am now.. I can't tell … maybe the connection between my heart and mind is really broken .. never registered my feelings.. but what I can tell is that I am really depressed .. do u know how it feels ?? ! like I am not breathing properly .. and there is this tightness where my heart is supposed to be !
Oh ,, you may be wondering like you did in the last chat we had.. do I really love you??? Did I ??? I told you the connection between my heart and mind is broken.. but this is for you to find.. simply .. I gave up on love long time ago!
The day I discovered your pretty lies was very ordinary to me .. but you see … the night before I had an endless nightmare ..you were there and I wasn’t happy with you at all… I guess it was a sign… so I wasn’t surprised .. more likely I was disappointed ..you make me want to vomit just like your other friends.. you are sick people..all of you disgust me to the point that my stomach feels sick ……..
And here you would question me : don’t you regret meeting me …????? do you know dear stranger-liar what my answer will be??? The same: no..
If you didn’t change at all then why should I ?????
We make a great pair don’t we??? Hahahahahahh … and here the play ends o black soul!

Lawak "Soalan?"

SOALAN YANG KERAP DITANYA. :)

* Anda berader di stesen bas dan rakan anda ternampak sambil bertanya: “Tunggu bas ke?”
Anda harus menjawab: “Taklah aku tengah tunggu helikopter, lambat plak ari nie ye”

... * Anda hendak pergi ke bilik mandi untuk mandi dan rakan sebilik anda bertanya: “Ko nak mandi ke?”
Jawab : “Taklah aku nak pi main lelayang kejap, ko nak join?

* Anda sedang menulis surat dan rakan anda menegur: “Aik? tulis surat nampak?”
Jawab :”Oh ye ke? aku tak prasan ah…tangan aku bergerak sendiri”

* Anda sedang makan nasik dan orang tegur: “Makan nasik?”
Jawab : ” Mata ko buta ke per? Kan aku tengah minum teh ais nie?”

* Anda baru pulang dari kerja dan jiran anda bertanyer: “Baru balik dari keje?”
Jawab : “Taklah, saya dari rumah, nak pi keje lah nie…opis saya dah pindah kat rumah..dan rumah saya dah pindah kat opis”

* Anda baru balik dari sekolah dan pd hr itu hujan turun dengan lebatya dan anda basah kuyup ketika masuk ke dlm rumah :"eh,hujan ke?"
Jawap: "taklah,sy baru madi tadi"

* Anda sedang menonton tv ceriter melayu, rakan anda datang lalu bertanyer: “Eh citer melayu ke?”
Jawab : “Bukanlah, nie kan citer Otromen Taro menentang Raksaser dari Planet X…ko tunggu jap nanti otromen kuar”..

oh ! lawak :D

The tourist then said: What the hell you know on the face of this earth ? You will die of illiteracy !
...
After a while, the boat started sinking.

So the boatman asked the tourist : Do you know Swimology and Escapology from Crocodilogy ?

The tourist said: NO !

The boat guy replied: Well you will Drownology and Crocodilogy will eat your Bodyology and you will Dieology because of your Badmouthology !!!! =)